Napalm Riot

So things have been bothering me lately and now seemed like a nice time to do a little rant and so forth...
School is out in approximately two months and things are gonna change. So much that I'm gonna have a hard time handling it. I've just been thinking a lot about what is coming to me in the next year or so. How everythig I knew is gonna change. Moving away from all I've known down to the, well, unknown.
Y'see, after I get outta school (I'm a senior in high school...joy) I have to make this huge decision that's gonna drastically alter my life. I gotta choose whether or not to move away, off to Arizona to live with my mom OR the alternative, stay in California with all I have left. My friends, my life, all that I've built.
I mean, obviously things are gonna end soon enough. Everyone's gonna leave for college, friendships will fade and everything will change. It's really nerve-racking to think about how this is gonna go along.
After all, if I move out to AZ, I'm gonna be in a very stable living condition...or so I'd think. The down side to it is that I'm gonna need to quit smoking or stock up on Febreeze to hide the stench because then I can no long blame it on my father. I get the feeling that if I move, I'll turn out to be a nervous wreck. I know for a fact that I'll NEVER be ready to move on. I'm still a teenager inside and although the years will go by, I won't want them to.
I wish we never aged, got diseases, etc. Because then not much would have to change.
I need to really figure out how I'm gonna do things and what the hell I'm gonna end up ending it all. I could live here with a ton of my friends as roommates.. But that would require a job, and right now, finding one seems to be as hard as licking your elbow, practically impossible to anyone who isn't built "normal."
I'm just really freaking out about what I'm gonna turn out to be. Time is passing and I can't stop it....and I can't stop thinking about it.

So, in less than a week (technically speaking, since I was born around 8:30 PM on the 8th of February..) I'll be eighteen. I've stopped stressing over the things that bring me down and started looking up. I mean, I can sign myself out of school whenever I want, I can sign for practically anything school-related (aka, field trip forms), and still 'Brawl is out in a month. I have bigger things to worry about than just being 18. I'm alright. I'm okay. Things'll work out on their own, right? :)

(This is a review of it, without any spoilers the spoiler portion is clearly labeled many lines below this.) I posted this part on the forum:



So, Cloverfield is about this guy who has a party thrown for him as a going away part due to work. All documented on a hand-held video camera by people on their survival.

Really, it's much more than that, but I don't want to say much more. The movie is the kind of thing that will be something you either hate...or love. Me, I loved it. So much. The monster is purely terrifying. Something you've never seen before. A suggestive note is that, as most will tell you, keep away from the front of the theatre. This movie will cause your eyes to be strained. That, and possibly give you motion sickness. The camera moves around a lot.
I recommend it. Giving it a solid "A" rating.

After seeing it, I will tell you one little detail that will calm you down. :) If you HAVE seen it, feel free to message me.









[~SPOILERS BELOW~][DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVE NOT SEEN THE MOVIE]





Cloverfield is definitely a movie that I will watch over and over. I'm sure that it will become a classic movie, but a lot still bothers me.

1) If you're bitten by one of the little bug-like things, exactly WHAT happens to you? There's a couple things I discussed with friends, and our main verdicts were:

1. That if you're bitten, you might have one growing inside you. (This I think is a little ridiculous, but still a possibility.) Note the fact that when a body was rolled in on a stretcher that the victim's stomach was practically blown open.
2. That you will soon explode
3. That you are infected with a virus that could be harmful to those around you.

2) How exactly did this monster arrive in Manhattan and why?
3) What happened after the main characters died?

Either way, there's hope for those of us that are still very interested in what the Cloverfield incident caused and how it progressed.

You see, at the end of the movie, after the credits rolled, a short phrase was muttered backwards. If you reversed it, you can clearly hear it as "It's still alive."
Meaning, obviously it's not over. Soon enough, a sequel will come. :)

Death Note is by far the best anime I have EVER seen. The art was great, the plot and overall storyline was AMAZING, and I don't think the voice actors could have been chosen better than they were.


The show made me think. I mean, not just about how everything fell into place, but more about the whole "what if Kira/the Death Note really existed?" thing. And more interesting, what if YOU found the Death Note? What would YOU do with it?
Personally, and call me a little sick in the head for this, but I'd actually use it to that kind of extent that Raito went to. Of course, I wouldn't think of it as to save the world from evil, because I'm just not that much of a deep thinker, but more of a way of just getting rid of those who are fucking up the world. As he said, "This world is rotting, and those who are making it rot deserve to die!"
But if I wasn't Kira, and he really existed, my whole way of thinking would change. I mean, seriously... If someone was able to kill me by just writing my name down in a book, I wouldn't do ANYTHING out of line. Although the world would be a much safer place, people would be WAY too paranoid to do anything they even REMOTELY considered bad.





[~SPOILERS BELOW~]
[DO NOT READ UNLESS YOU'VE FINISHED THE SERIES OR DO NOT PLAN TO]


The end nearly made me cry. I really wanted Raito(Light) to win. I don't know why exactly, but he was just more of a likable character in my opinion. His death was definitely well made up. It was surely epic and the twist at the end, even though it seemed a little predictable was great.
Still, it really made me wonder how Misa was going to hold out. Nothing was explained about how her life changed, or even if she actually was aware that Matsuda killed him. She didn't seem heartbroken at all. I mean yeah, she didn't remember a thing related to the Death Note, but she still considered herself to be close to his fiance`. Really, I would've liked a sort-of epilogue, or wrap-up episode. Nothing you'd HAVE to see, but for those fans who wanted more. To see how the world turned out to be, and if they figured out that Kira was no longer among them.

So next month, I will officially be an adult. Yep, the 1-8...and I'm excited, yet at the same time, I'm not. I mean, God. I don't want to be considered an adult yet. That means I'll have more responsibility...and I'm actually liable for practically everything I do. The only big thing I liked about being seventeen was that I could buy M-rated games. Problem is, I have no ID proving that I am indeed that age so it pretty much defeats the purpose...because stores suck and don't understand that in most cases, when you're a senior in high school, and I have an ID for that...just not with my age on it. (What's up with that?) that you ARE seventeen. At least. I mean, really, my cashier last time I had this problem was actually a boyfriend of a friend of mine. 'Course I highly doubt he recognized me, but I just thought it was completely bull.
-sighs-
Rant over.

Hey everyone. So I will generally not be typing up much stuff exactly related to gaming on these blogs, but I'll be sure to fit in a couple things of my anticipation or obsession over a new game.
But anyway, it's the week before finals at my school and it's been stressing me all month. It's actually kinda pissing me off. I love my school (after all, I fought to stay at it instead of moving out to Arizona the beginning of the school year), but it's definitely wearing me out. I've been trying to study, but still try to keep up with my social life. Sadly, it's all I've got out of this house. Surprisingly, for a gamer, out of the stereotype, I've got tons of non-gamer friends, and an actual boyfriend. Go figure, huh?
So I met this guy two weeks ago and I've been out for two dates with him so far. He's a charming guy, actually. He's fun to be around.. And really, I'm just waiting for Monday to roll on. Bowling wth him and a couple friends.

But onto the short gaming portion of the blog...
Lately I've been getting kind of pissed off by the constant delay of Super Smash Brothers Brawl. I mean, it's seriously taking too long to be released to the states. Yes, they want it to be "perfect," but it's so annoying to hear, "Oh, well due to our inactivity, we need to delay it another month. Sorry, guys!"
I mean, I still have No More Heroes to look forward to next month, but I was hoping to get my hands on SSBB a few days after... Still, I bought Mario Galaxy about three weeks ago, have barely gotten to the third world, and got kinda bored with it. Yes, it's thought to be the best Mario game in practically a decade, but I don't find it to be all that exciting. :-/

Dunno why, but yeah...Have a great weekend everyone!